Bleak Bleak Bleak

[Sigh.]

I called Head Start this morning - my last solid hope - and was told by the secretary that interviews are happening tomorrow and that if I was being considered that I would've been called already. OK. So, you were considering hiring me for a teaching job last summer [when all I wanted to do was volunteer!] when I was completely underqualified, and now that I actually have a teaching credential you won't consider me at all. Uh huh.

I called 4 schools listed on the "vacancies" list at the SFUSD website. 3 of them were for "On Site Substitute" jobs - basically, you are a sub, but work at one school everyday filling in wherever and doing whatever you are needed for - and was told, "Oh, this position has already been filled." Well, then why was it posted for the first time this morning?? The other job was a 1st Grade and I was told that there was someone that they were seriously considering, but took my name and number "just in case". Thanks.

School starts next Monday. Yeah, some stuff could still come up this week - I guess some teachers wait until the VERY last minute to let the district know that they aren't coming back so that they can continue to get benefits all Summer. HOW SELFISH IS THAT?! If you are doing that, then you are screwing with A LOT of people. Number 1, you are fucking over your potential class of students because they are now going to get a teacher [Number 2] thrown in there at the last possible minute who is scrambling to make sense of everything and get things in order, and who doesn't then get to attend the new teacher training week that the district provides [which, I assume, was a couple of weeks ago]. Plus [Numbers 3 & 4], the school itself, and the whole school community at large, is getting screwed because the new teacher will be missing all of the initial community building teacher meetings that happen the week before school starts - THIS week.

The whole damn thing blows. Why can't I find a damn job? At this point, it looks like I'm just going to have to go back to subbing this year. Even though I HATE SUBBING. I guess I will just canvas the 5 or six schools within walking distance, giving them my name and phone number, and hope that I can avoid going to a completely foreign school everyday.

The only thing keeping me going right now is the Cure show this coming Saturday.

Bummed. Really really bummed...